I’m nearly 6 months and my belly is still pretty small. Sure, when I look at it, it seems GINOURMOUS compared to what was there before, but as soon as I look at anyone else gestating a human I feel quite inadequate. Who would have thought a small belly could be so disappointing and upsetting… It forces me to wonder – is something wrong? Is she not growing enough?
Today we went to a breast feeding class and I was by far the smallest bump there. Yes – I compared! Are these people farther along than me? The class syllabus suggested taking it during the 2nd trimester, so you would think most of them would be close to where I am. When people ask me how far along I am they are always surprised by my answer. I’ve had some go so far as to say “are you sure?” I want to say “are you f’ing insensitive?” But instead I meekly reply “yes.”
I troll through pregnancy blogs trying to reassure myself by finding someone else with my belly size at this week. Then it’s off to the Baby-Gaga pregnancy calendar models. There are a few that might be close to me, so maybe I shouldn’t be so worried. But the ultimate reassurance – Gisele’s baby bump. She’s 8 months pregnant and not very big.
Photo from Accidental Sexiness
That’s right bitches, I’ve got a super model sized baby bump. And that makes me feel ever so slightly less inadequate.